Suddenly. It hits you and then you are a new person. Someone with new hope, with a different view on life. Someone with a perspective that is enhanced, broadened from what seemed to be quite narrow before. There is this new person and I dont need to hide so much anymore.
I am afraid to read too much into all of this, while everything tells me I can if that is who I am... This, while new, seems so familiar, so comfortable, so natural. If, by personality, I am a person who is fast to find deep significance in what happens to her, that trait is encouraged now by the knowledge that the other person involved thinks along these same lines. If I find myself thinking about something specific, and when I share it, that gets rewarded by the confirmation that those same thoughts have been crossing the other persons mind, too. Why is it that things change so quickly? Where is the downside? Why can I not just be happy, without worrying, without keeping myself braced for the possibility that this is all unreal, that the dream house of cards just falls apart, leaving me being laughed at by some undefined entity of life? The interesting thing is, that I - again - am not alone with this fear and those worries. We do share them and while they persist, we give each other the confirmation, that so far, all is true and real. Its like getting glasses when you did not know you needed them. You did see fine before, but suddenly, a whole new perspective opens to you and you cant understand how you could not have missed it before.
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